My husband and I have been really busy and we forgot to buy wet cat food. They usually get kibble in the morning and wet food for dinner. I had to feed them kibble for dinner since we ran out, and Pumpkin didn’t want to eat it because he’s a diva XD If you own a cat, you know this is true.
I am leaving for my sister’s wedding tomorrow, and it is on the other side of the country. My mom said she would be interested in reading my stories, but they’re kind of depressing XD I should probably warn her before she reads it, if she does. I actually don’t really care if my family reads my stories. I don’t want to force anyone to read my stuff, so I’ll just give it to her, and she can read it or not. I neglected to tell her about the abuse story I am writing next for obvious reasons :$ I don’t want to hurt my mom. . .
In the beginning when I first started writing fanfiction, she read through it for me. She told me something that stayed with me. I merged my personality and characteristics with Cloud, and I hurt him in my story, so I was punishing myself in a way. My mom told me it was sad that I felt the need to hate myself, which is kind of ironic given some of the things she has said. To be honest, I didn’t even realize I was doing that, self-punishment by proxy I suppose I guess the weirder thing is that I see myself as being very similar to Cloud, a tortured soul, while my friends think of me as a friendly, optimistic, and upbeat person. I guess I’m a bit of both. I might write a post on that someday. The fact that our perceptions of ourselves are often different than what other people see.