I put the suicide story away for now. I’ll come back to it in a few weeks and do the final revision. I started the editing process on the other short story I wrote about a woman who donates her deceased son’s heart to a little girl. I ended up lengthening the memory/flashback in the beginning to give more insight into both the mom and the son. That’s when I realized a pattern was emerging. Both of these short stories are employing flashbacks and death.
My huge fanfic novel also relied on flashbacks and death. I didn’t plan for it to turn out like that, but it just did XD Two out of my next three stories don’t have any flashbacks or death, and only one of the short stories isn’t angst. I don’t want my writing to all be flashbacks and death, but for some reason I naturally gravitate towards it. I’ll show you what I mean. . .
Future Short Stories
1. A soldier with PTSD adopts an abused cat and they heal each other (Angst/Flashbacks and death)
2. A little girl copes with an abusive father and ends up blaming herself for it (Angst/No flashbacks or death)
3. A Japanese man comes across a katana in America and tries to give the spirit peace (Not angst/No flashbacks or death)
4. A mother donates her son’s organs after he dies and keeps in contact with the girl that gets his heart (Angst/Flashbacks and Death)
5. A man kills himself after a long spiral downwards with depression and substance abuse due to his fiancee’s death (Angst/Flashbacks and Death)
See a pattern? XD Story #3 is actually based on something that happened to my husband. The details will be changed to make it different, but I was humbled by his devotion and respect to the fallen Japanese warriors in WW II. I love reading and writing angst, but I already knew that. It was my preoccupation with death I didn’t realize till now. Part of the reason I love angst so much is the potential for emotive and poetic prose. I’m not sure why I am writing about death. Maybe it will come to me later.
I guess this post is more of an observation because it’s hard to change the subject matter you want to write. McCarthy writes angst almost exclusively. It’s just who he is as a writer. A friend of mine pointed out that just because I’m writing depressing stories now doesn’t condemn me to the same thing in the future. Perhaps, but I think I will always gravitate towards angst. I have written humor in the past, but I haven’t been inspired to do that in a while.
Anyway, my job starts tomorrow, and I’m excited 😀 The first month will be tough, so I may not get much writing or reading in. But once I’m settled I’ll be in a better place to write. I’ll try to keep up my reading though or my technique will deteriorate a bit